for real what have i done to deserve such torture?
wait… ithink its love.
i havent felt anything like this since him.
not even with this guy.
you brought back memories of passion, lust, and love.
its hard to figure out what iwant.
or is it the need?
the need to feel that love… you know, the forbidden type.
the kind that only you know are for you and her.
this is making me think,
question what i want,
dream of reasons why.
its hurting me… but not in that way!
but, that doesnt hurt me.
what hurts me is idont know if you feel the same.
if its even worth me falling for you.
no itake that back.
i know its worth it, but you have to believe it.
you can go on the rest of your days with her.
but if you ever told me you felt the same at one point,
i would let go.
just knowing you had a shed of love for me…
iwould pretend for you, pretend nothing happened.
go back to being friends.
go back to like nothing happened.
go back to hidding the feelings.
maybe it was fate?
or just the world out to get me?
shes inspring me to write,
she doesnt understand this is what iwant.
she doesnt see how amazing iknow she is.
how different she is.
how much icould love her.
yeah, if she would let me, iwould let her know, ilove her.
iknow you wont ever let me.
but im okay with it.
iopened the door,
you invited me in.
ithink to myself.
Look at her,
a true goddess…
her hair, golden & bright.
her voice, light; like an angel.
her lips, soft & forbidden to the touch.
her warmth, eagerness; excitement.
her touch, strong & right.
words flutter my mind.
beautiful, wonderful, soulful, forbidden.
iknow what the truth is.
but ihold myself to her like ineed air to breath.
imusnt let her know what this means.
imusnt scare her away from me.
my dreams have come true,
lets hold onto what is pure.
iwont tell her,
iwont risk her happiness.
but ithink iknow what the truth is.
shes created bliss.
without the kiss.
you are my light.
please shine bright.
See! see that?
thats her doing.
on the spot thats what ifeel.
ugh, idont know.
she just needs to know im not hurting.
this is making me happy.
really truly happy.