I’m just thinking about the next time I’ll see you. the next time I’ll hear your voice. the next time I’ll get to hold you. the next time I’ll have a meaningful conversation with you. the next time I can just play video games with you. until then.. I’m just going to be waiting for a text from you. that’s the closest thing I have that involves you.
"When she and i are hanging out together, being lazy and playing video games. Killing Nazi Zombies or trying to beat a series of games in one night. Staying up late just because we can. That’s when i am the most happiest because nothing can ruin those great memories i have with her. :)
I went to go see Breaking Dawn on it’s premier. It was a great movie, it did the book some justice. :) I laughed, smiled, frowned and cried. Don’t assume the reasons were because of the grand wedding or the giant wolf crying or the birth of the beautiful half vampire, no not those. The wolf reminded me of someone near and dear to my heart. He was my best friend. The only boy I ever truly loved. His name, Angel. Angel was my companion through rough storms and calm waves. The only boy who knew the deepest and darkest points of my heart. I loved him more then any of the other guys that came into my life. He is too amazing for words. And then one day.. He leaves me in the shadows; By myself. with no reason of his absence. I just knew he didn’t want me anymore. Then I cried. I cried and cried until I couldn’t breath. Then I grew angry. I wanted answers I knew I would never get. The sick thing is, if he came walking back to me I might give him a chance.. But right now, I hate him. I hate what he’s done to me.. He shattered my heart into a million pieces and left me to fend for myself. now I know fear, now I know. Everything reminds me of you. Everything. Still. Do you not understand how horrible that is?! how much I strongly hate your presence! the worst part of this is, I have to see you be happy without me in your life, everyday. You are the only boy i thought could actually be my best friend. Thanks for everything, Angel.